Enrollment in Nature in Lit is up to 10. That seems likely to run--especially as there are still two weeks before class starts--but ... there are only two weeks before class starts, and I've backed up a few paces on having the class ready, so, freak-out time.
On the good news front, I did figure out how to create online quizzes, so I can assign the handbook reading and have a reasonable way to ensure that it's been read. (Ditto for the FTF classes: for the SF class, they'll be take-home quizzes, as I don't want to waste class time on them--and maybe the info will stick a little better if a. I tell them what to focus on and b. they have to give it back in their own words.)
But as for backing up, well, let me back up a bit, provide some context.
This cold/flu thingy is still kicking my ass, energy-wise. So I opted to spend today pretty much bed-bound, drinking tea (OK, yes, taking a nap), and my concession to the fact that I need to work was that I was going through the Norton anthology again, trying to pick readings. And I realized, it's fine to do things chronologically from Bradford and Smith up to Thoreau, but then I really need to organize thematically, as there is no strong historical thread by which to organize. And that meant I had to revisit a lot of the readings, as I don't know them terribly well--in fact, quite honestly, some I didn't remember at all--and try to come up with categories for them.
The categories are, of course, sprawling and ill-defined--and any one piece could conceivably be categorized several different ways. Of readings that appeal to me personally (which are the only kind I'll choose, as I don't want to be stuck teaching something I don't like enough to reread and talk about), a lot fall into specific categories that are not necessarily the most important in terms of the field (so to speak) of whatever we mean when we talk about "nature writing." I also have to bear in mind that some pieces that I love may be too dense or "deep" for students (Thomas Merton's "Rain and the Rhinoceros" being case in point).
And the anthology is fucking huge. It's wonderful because one can go so many different directions with it, but I cannot possibly read all I "should" in it to make good selections. So, tomorrow, I'm going to have to focus on skipping anything that doesn't seem to fall neatly into any of the categories I'm working with--and skimming anything that does, just enough to see whether I think it will work.
I also realize that I probably need to go through everything I set up last year very carefully, to make sure I haven't changed my mind about things.
And I have to remember to tell the IT guys to make it an active class, not in development. (That I can actually do as soon as I finish this post.)
And and and and. The usual domino chain of things to worry about dropping through the floorboards.
Well, Paul's experience last semester should be instructive: he was, god love him, building his online course as he taught it (which I know I cannot do), and he acknowledged that he did a good enough job on it: not the best he could have done, but good enough. Of course, my anxiety is that I won't even feel like what I've done is good enough--but I'll do what I can.
I hope, too, that today's sloth and lassitude will bring at least a partial rebound of energy and verve. This being under the weather is annoying as shit.
Saturday, December 30, 2017
Thursday, December 28, 2017
This. Exactly and precisely THIS.
I've been keeping this blog for years. I cannot possibly express what teaching is or why I do it any better than Tegan Bennett Daylight does in this article from The Guardian. (And yes, if you'd be so kind as to chip in a bit to keep The Guardian publishing and access to its articles available, that would be nice.)
Fucking brilliant.
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/dec/24/the-difficulty-is-the-point-teaching-spoon-fed-students-how-to-really-read
Fucking brilliant.
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/dec/24/the-difficulty-is-the-point-teaching-spoon-fed-students-how-to-really-read
Wednesday, December 27, 2017
Knocking off early
I know, I know: it's going to come back to bite me in the ass. I did a little more work on the 101s today--streamlining some assignment handouts (they're still too long and cumbersome), clarifying late submission penalties, fiddling with how the syllabus is laid out, that sort of thing.
I spent a long time on the phone with my sister--and yes, I am aware how astoundingly, over-the-moon blessed I am to be able to work at home and put work aside long enough to talk with my sister.
I didn't get anything done on any other classes. In fact, I very nearly didn't even get that much done. I'm not feeling as sick as I've been (though my voice is pretty hilarious to listen to), but I am completely beat, just way the hell too tired.
So, in the "Tomorrow is another day" department, I'll try to get a little life maintenance done tomorrow and get a good stint of semester prep in as well. I have canceled both my lessons for this week (no ride, no fiddle), and I don't have any wild and crazy plans, so ... well, here's hoping. But for now, I'm stick-a-fork-in-me done.
I spent a long time on the phone with my sister--and yes, I am aware how astoundingly, over-the-moon blessed I am to be able to work at home and put work aside long enough to talk with my sister.
I didn't get anything done on any other classes. In fact, I very nearly didn't even get that much done. I'm not feeling as sick as I've been (though my voice is pretty hilarious to listen to), but I am completely beat, just way the hell too tired.
So, in the "Tomorrow is another day" department, I'll try to get a little life maintenance done tomorrow and get a good stint of semester prep in as well. I have canceled both my lessons for this week (no ride, no fiddle), and I don't have any wild and crazy plans, so ... well, here's hoping. But for now, I'm stick-a-fork-in-me done.
Tuesday, December 26, 2017
Juggling syllabi
Well, actually, I'm working on one syllabus at a time, but I'm juggling dates and reconfiguring assignments for the 101s--and that meant having to rework the math of the final grades, which took a bit: I'm ditching the discussion board posts, so I had a lot of points I had to distribute--but I'm adding little "reflection" assignments as essay warm-ups. The numbers didn't balance out exactly: I didn't want the reflections to count for too much (and they still count for more than would be ideal, but ah well).
And I tried to figure out how to give myself some wiggle room to cancel classes either before or after spring break--and I couldn't quite figure it out. I may return to that project later; it would be nice to have a little latitude about then, but it just may not work out.
Since classes officially end on a Monday, however, I am reverting to an old practice of making the last day of class a "grade conferences in my office" day, which, of course, translates to "come see me if you want, but I'm going to be in the office grading.
I still haven't done any work on the online Nature in Lit--though it picked up two students today, so it's that much closer to running, assuming no one falls by the wayside again. I'm interested to note that in the SF class--which has I think 16 students now--there are only three women. By contrast, all eight of the students in the Nature in Lit are women. At least, that's what the first names suggest--and there aren't any names I see that would be gender-neutral.
Right now, the slightly bigger worry is whether enough students will register in the 101 section that I want to keep. The one I want to toss back into the pool is nearly full, of course. The one I want to keep is a little later in the day (not as late as was the case last semester, but later), which makes my time in Advisement easier to schedule--and it is the only 101 being offered at that particular time, so it may yet fill. Paul and I spent a while before the last semester ended looking at which sections were full, which not--for a bunch of classes--and tried to determine whether the enrollment reflected time of day, rating of professor by students, or some other constellation of factors. It's very strange and mysterious. But it's also early days yet--as I kept telling Cathy last week. We won't really know the story until the Nth hour, I'm sure. We'll cancel classes and suddenly there will be a surge of students wanting to register late, and we won't have any place to put them. When the semester starts earlier than usual, that's what happens.
Meanwhile, I'm still fighting off whatever dreadful virus I picked up (or viruses: I think I may have gotten one, kicked it, and then succumbed to another as I was still recovering). I sound like hell--but fortunately, I don't have to do a lot of talking, and, equally fortunately, I can sleep as late as I like. Which is heaven.
We'll see how much I can crank through tomorrow. I'll work on the SF syllabus next--polishing off the ones I know for sure I'm going to teach--and then it will be all hands on deck for the Nature in Lit, assuming enrollment continues to rise. Here's hoping.
And I tried to figure out how to give myself some wiggle room to cancel classes either before or after spring break--and I couldn't quite figure it out. I may return to that project later; it would be nice to have a little latitude about then, but it just may not work out.
Since classes officially end on a Monday, however, I am reverting to an old practice of making the last day of class a "grade conferences in my office" day, which, of course, translates to "come see me if you want, but I'm going to be in the office grading.
I still haven't done any work on the online Nature in Lit--though it picked up two students today, so it's that much closer to running, assuming no one falls by the wayside again. I'm interested to note that in the SF class--which has I think 16 students now--there are only three women. By contrast, all eight of the students in the Nature in Lit are women. At least, that's what the first names suggest--and there aren't any names I see that would be gender-neutral.
Right now, the slightly bigger worry is whether enough students will register in the 101 section that I want to keep. The one I want to toss back into the pool is nearly full, of course. The one I want to keep is a little later in the day (not as late as was the case last semester, but later), which makes my time in Advisement easier to schedule--and it is the only 101 being offered at that particular time, so it may yet fill. Paul and I spent a while before the last semester ended looking at which sections were full, which not--for a bunch of classes--and tried to determine whether the enrollment reflected time of day, rating of professor by students, or some other constellation of factors. It's very strange and mysterious. But it's also early days yet--as I kept telling Cathy last week. We won't really know the story until the Nth hour, I'm sure. We'll cancel classes and suddenly there will be a surge of students wanting to register late, and we won't have any place to put them. When the semester starts earlier than usual, that's what happens.
Meanwhile, I'm still fighting off whatever dreadful virus I picked up (or viruses: I think I may have gotten one, kicked it, and then succumbed to another as I was still recovering). I sound like hell--but fortunately, I don't have to do a lot of talking, and, equally fortunately, I can sleep as late as I like. Which is heaven.
We'll see how much I can crank through tomorrow. I'll work on the SF syllabus next--polishing off the ones I know for sure I'm going to teach--and then it will be all hands on deck for the Nature in Lit, assuming enrollment continues to rise. Here's hoping.
Friday, December 22, 2017
And now comes the shouting part...
I got the grades finished, numbers crunched, paper forms filled out, paper forms photocopied--and submitted them to the office about 35 seconds before the office closed.
Then I spent about 2 hours with Cathy--mostly sitting in her office while she was firing off emails (as her MO is "do it right now" on everything), but also helping her get her mind organized with what she needs to have with her when she's out of town and I'm working on adjunct schedules all by my lonesome. (Not really: our wonderful office staff will be here with me--and Cathy will be just an email away.)
So, I just got back upstairs to the office to submit the grades on Banner--and now is when I start getting emails from students, incensed and irate that they got the grades that they got, even though they should have known exactly what was coming from their grade trackers.
I just had a moment of thinking, "Should I have adjusted the grades for the 2:00 101, the say I did for the later section?" But I don't think it would have made much difference, as the ones who didn't pass were deficient in all areas of their submissions, not just in their discussion boards.
I probably should stay here in the office to tidy up a bit--it's a bit of a chaotic wreck, as I was flinging paper about in my mad dash to get stuff to the main office in time--but I really am completely cooked, stick-a-fork-in-me done. I'll water my plants and stagger off out of here.
It may be foolish to think that I'll work at all on the spring syllabi--or the online course--in the next few days, but one never knows. Stranger things have happened. (Not to me, but ... surely, at some point in human history, something stranger has happened.)
OK, I'm getting daffy. That's clear and present evidence that I am tired and starting to lose it, whatever it might be. I'm off like a herd of turtles (an expression I just picked up from The Bone Clocks by David C. Mitchell--a very strange but fun read).
Then I spent about 2 hours with Cathy--mostly sitting in her office while she was firing off emails (as her MO is "do it right now" on everything), but also helping her get her mind organized with what she needs to have with her when she's out of town and I'm working on adjunct schedules all by my lonesome. (Not really: our wonderful office staff will be here with me--and Cathy will be just an email away.)
So, I just got back upstairs to the office to submit the grades on Banner--and now is when I start getting emails from students, incensed and irate that they got the grades that they got, even though they should have known exactly what was coming from their grade trackers.
I just had a moment of thinking, "Should I have adjusted the grades for the 2:00 101, the say I did for the later section?" But I don't think it would have made much difference, as the ones who didn't pass were deficient in all areas of their submissions, not just in their discussion boards.
I probably should stay here in the office to tidy up a bit--it's a bit of a chaotic wreck, as I was flinging paper about in my mad dash to get stuff to the main office in time--but I really am completely cooked, stick-a-fork-in-me done. I'll water my plants and stagger off out of here.
It may be foolish to think that I'll work at all on the spring syllabi--or the online course--in the next few days, but one never knows. Stranger things have happened. (Not to me, but ... surely, at some point in human history, something stranger has happened.)
OK, I'm getting daffy. That's clear and present evidence that I am tired and starting to lose it, whatever it might be. I'm off like a herd of turtles (an expression I just picked up from The Bone Clocks by David C. Mitchell--a very strange but fun read).
Thursday, December 21, 2017
Different section, different rules
So, I was saying the other day that I wouldn't adjust grades for the students in the 101s; I sent the "withdraw or fail" emails--and one student actually got the email and came in today with the withdrawal form. (I just checked: she got the form in to the Registrar and is officially out of the class, so that's good.)
But then I started calculating grades for the students in the later section. Of the ten who actually submitted the final essay, seven would have failed if I calculated their grades using the original scoring--and most of them were failing entirely because they didn't submit the discussion boards.
So, I figured out a formula that would put the balance of the grade on the work apart from the discussion boards; the discussion board posts thereby ended up being essentially extra credit. The students who did them, or did most of them, got a significant bump. One student--the snotty or not? young woman--would have gotten an A+ either way (if we gave A+ grades, which we don't), but the rest either passed or didn't, got above a D or didn't, based on the rest of their work. And I feel like the grade distribution is pretty accurate.
I was going to post this hours ago, but then I realized I still had enough steam left to embark on grading for the SF class. I was going to try to get it all done tonight--but I just realized that one student didn't upload his essay to Turnitin, and he's one I've suspected of plagiarizing since his first essay. (It actually wasn't that good an essay, but it sure read like a pastiche of other people's intelligent and sophisticated ideas and language.) I've just sent him an email telling him that he needs to email the essay to me so I can upload it. I was going to type it in myself and upload it that way--but you know what? It's late. I'm tired. I'm still getting over the hurkey-furkey. I might do it tomorrow. I might not.
The interesting thing about the SF class so far is that there is a strange gap: a number of students got A's (actually deserved them, in fact). I think there's one B, one C--and then a bunch of D's. Not a bell curve, more of a dromedary curve. I still have a few more to evaluate and a few more numbers to crunch--and given how early the office closes tomorrow, I need to get my little fanny in here ASAP to finish up and submit my paperwork.
All the more reason to call a halt to today's proceedings and put off to tomorrow the rest.
Oh, so close. So close....
But then I started calculating grades for the students in the later section. Of the ten who actually submitted the final essay, seven would have failed if I calculated their grades using the original scoring--and most of them were failing entirely because they didn't submit the discussion boards.
So, I figured out a formula that would put the balance of the grade on the work apart from the discussion boards; the discussion board posts thereby ended up being essentially extra credit. The students who did them, or did most of them, got a significant bump. One student--the snotty or not? young woman--would have gotten an A+ either way (if we gave A+ grades, which we don't), but the rest either passed or didn't, got above a D or didn't, based on the rest of their work. And I feel like the grade distribution is pretty accurate.
I was going to post this hours ago, but then I realized I still had enough steam left to embark on grading for the SF class. I was going to try to get it all done tonight--but I just realized that one student didn't upload his essay to Turnitin, and he's one I've suspected of plagiarizing since his first essay. (It actually wasn't that good an essay, but it sure read like a pastiche of other people's intelligent and sophisticated ideas and language.) I've just sent him an email telling him that he needs to email the essay to me so I can upload it. I was going to type it in myself and upload it that way--but you know what? It's late. I'm tired. I'm still getting over the hurkey-furkey. I might do it tomorrow. I might not.
The interesting thing about the SF class so far is that there is a strange gap: a number of students got A's (actually deserved them, in fact). I think there's one B, one C--and then a bunch of D's. Not a bell curve, more of a dromedary curve. I still have a few more to evaluate and a few more numbers to crunch--and given how early the office closes tomorrow, I need to get my little fanny in here ASAP to finish up and submit my paperwork.
All the more reason to call a halt to today's proceedings and put off to tomorrow the rest.
Oh, so close. So close....
Wednesday, December 20, 2017
Home sick ... but still grading
I got everything finished for the 2:00 class: all essays evaluated, numbers crunched. I haven't filled out the paperwork (and once again, I will refrain from comment about the fact that we still have to do paperwork), but that's a matter of moments, as is inputting the grades on Banner. The 5:00 class won't take long, as so few students actually finished the semester.
I decided to send emails to the students who are set to fail, giving them one last chance to withdraw. My strong hunch is that they won't check their email in time to get the chance, but ... well, this will be their wake-up call about missing work. I'm not going to curve the grades after all; it turns out not to be necessary. The curve is pretty much as usual. And, to my delight, one young man who was virtually silent all semester--and who seemed to have more than a bit of a chip on his shoulder, having nothing to do with me, I think--actually managed to squeak out an A.
On the other hand, one of the kids who hugged me the last day may decide he wants to take back the hug: he's one who's failing.
I'm very glad I brought work home yesterday, as it meant I could stay home today and nurse this hurkey-furkey I have succumbed to. I was a bit alarmed last night when I spiked a fever and saw white spots on my tonsils, but this morning, no fever and spots gone--and although I still have a bit of a sore throat and am decidedly puny, I feel better than I thought I would. I got the grading done despite a rather lengthy stint of lying still on the sofa, so ... that's good.
In the more good news department, the spring classes are looking good in terms of enrollment. SF has 16, and--hooray (I think)--Nature in Lit has 6, which is a good trend. There aren't many spaces left in lit electives being offered online, so I suspect it will get to runnable numbers before the axe would have to fall. That does mean a hell of a lot of work on getting the damned thing constructed online--and I'm still not entirely sure about the last weeks' readings: I'm in the process of trying to get rights to post Paradises Lost. Ursula, god love her, has told her agent she approves of the idea, but she also expresses very valid concerns about the thing getting loose on the net. Her agent will advise, and it may be that the agent advises against it, in which case I'll just make more use of the purchased textbook--but it sure would be sweet to be able to teach the novella. It's such a great way to end the class, or so I think.
Returning to this semester, tomorrow I should be well enough to go to campus for the department party (sigh: I fucking hate that kind of party, but ... well, it's politic to go, and there are a few people I wouldn't mind talking with), and, more important, to meet with the SF class for their end-of-semester debriefing. I'll be interested to get their take on Left Hand of Darkness; I hope they generally approve of it, but we'll see.
And then it's just about grinding through the last of the grading. I have already made my peace with going in on Friday--and perhaps even having to set an alarm, as the office closes early on Friday; that will depend on how much I get done tomorrow.
But for today, I am one whipped puppy. Early to bed, says this professor.
I decided to send emails to the students who are set to fail, giving them one last chance to withdraw. My strong hunch is that they won't check their email in time to get the chance, but ... well, this will be their wake-up call about missing work. I'm not going to curve the grades after all; it turns out not to be necessary. The curve is pretty much as usual. And, to my delight, one young man who was virtually silent all semester--and who seemed to have more than a bit of a chip on his shoulder, having nothing to do with me, I think--actually managed to squeak out an A.
On the other hand, one of the kids who hugged me the last day may decide he wants to take back the hug: he's one who's failing.
I'm very glad I brought work home yesterday, as it meant I could stay home today and nurse this hurkey-furkey I have succumbed to. I was a bit alarmed last night when I spiked a fever and saw white spots on my tonsils, but this morning, no fever and spots gone--and although I still have a bit of a sore throat and am decidedly puny, I feel better than I thought I would. I got the grading done despite a rather lengthy stint of lying still on the sofa, so ... that's good.
In the more good news department, the spring classes are looking good in terms of enrollment. SF has 16, and--hooray (I think)--Nature in Lit has 6, which is a good trend. There aren't many spaces left in lit electives being offered online, so I suspect it will get to runnable numbers before the axe would have to fall. That does mean a hell of a lot of work on getting the damned thing constructed online--and I'm still not entirely sure about the last weeks' readings: I'm in the process of trying to get rights to post Paradises Lost. Ursula, god love her, has told her agent she approves of the idea, but she also expresses very valid concerns about the thing getting loose on the net. Her agent will advise, and it may be that the agent advises against it, in which case I'll just make more use of the purchased textbook--but it sure would be sweet to be able to teach the novella. It's such a great way to end the class, or so I think.
Returning to this semester, tomorrow I should be well enough to go to campus for the department party (sigh: I fucking hate that kind of party, but ... well, it's politic to go, and there are a few people I wouldn't mind talking with), and, more important, to meet with the SF class for their end-of-semester debriefing. I'll be interested to get their take on Left Hand of Darkness; I hope they generally approve of it, but we'll see.
And then it's just about grinding through the last of the grading. I have already made my peace with going in on Friday--and perhaps even having to set an alarm, as the office closes early on Friday; that will depend on how much I get done tomorrow.
But for today, I am one whipped puppy. Early to bed, says this professor.
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
Nope: going home
I'm fighting off a cold. I'm exhausted. I'm taking papers home to work on final grading after I have a nap. I may not make my "Thursday if it kills me" deadline for submitting all the final paperwork, as Cathy and I have to spend some time on adjunct scheduling tomorrow. But I am not going to push today only to feel like a squashed dog turd later in the week.
More tomorrow, I do hope.
More tomorrow, I do hope.
Monday, December 18, 2017
Good-bye ... and good riddance
The last meeting with the 2:00 101 class was lovely: they were, as they have been, bonded, talkative, interested, interesting. One particularly sweet moment was when one young man--I've not talked about him much, but he's been charming and earnest and a good worker and intelligent--said how much he learned from the thinking of a few of his classmates, whom he mentioned by name. (The fact that they know each other's names is evidence enough of what a great class it is.) I told him that he's one of those people for his classmates: they all get great ideas from him. He didn't know that he stands in the company of the best students in the class, but he does. Two students wanted to give me hugs, which I granted (though I'm always a bit nervous about the possible accusations that could arise, I tend to trust my students--and I don't offer if they don't ask).
The students in the 5:00 class? Not so much. When class started, only two were there. Eventually, we got to seven--out of ten who submitted the final essay. They didn't have much to say--though one of them, a young woman I've not been able to figure out all semester (snotty? not?), was talking with her classmates about other classes and professors, empathizing, making recommendations. They didn't look at each other--and basically couldn't wait to get out of the room. Don't let the door hit you on the way out.
Oh, and earlier, during my office hour, the Media Mogul showed up with his withdrawal slip. He seemed a bit chastened, and he did say he'd been upset about "failing" the class, but that another of his professors reassured him that sometimes it just isn't the right time. I agreed with that. He also said that he's been put into the honors program--and all I could think was "Based on what, exactly?" The only examples of his writing that I saw were hardly honors quality ... but I probably shouldn't get going on what I think of the direction of the honors program in the past few years. I do want to see whether the Mogul has signed up for Paul's honors comp for spring--and if he has, I'll issue a bit of a warning. That may not be fair; it might be best to let Paul draw his own conclusions about the kid--but then, Paul also sometimes reads this blog, so....
As for the grading process, I've read and commented on the essays for the students who wanted those comments. I have two more essays to read and leave on my office door with just the grade. Then I get down to the quick and dirty: read, calculate, toss in the box. I'll get essays from the SF students tomorrow, then I'll meet them for the end-of-semester debriefing and to collect their self-evaluations. By that time, I should have everything calculated, ready to plug that last number in ... so I'm hoping I can submit final grades early and be home early on Thursday.
But I'm getting ahead of myself. I do have a couple of those "Oh, shit, I keep forgetting" things to take care of (responding as a jury reader to a potential publication that I've given feedback on several times before, trying to get copyright to use Le Guin's Paradises Lost in the online Nature in Lit--which is now up to a whole entire three students registered!!)--but none of that will happen tonight. I'm staggering home. We'll see how early (or, more realistically, how late) I roll in tomorrow, and how much I manage to get done.
The students in the 5:00 class? Not so much. When class started, only two were there. Eventually, we got to seven--out of ten who submitted the final essay. They didn't have much to say--though one of them, a young woman I've not been able to figure out all semester (snotty? not?), was talking with her classmates about other classes and professors, empathizing, making recommendations. They didn't look at each other--and basically couldn't wait to get out of the room. Don't let the door hit you on the way out.
Oh, and earlier, during my office hour, the Media Mogul showed up with his withdrawal slip. He seemed a bit chastened, and he did say he'd been upset about "failing" the class, but that another of his professors reassured him that sometimes it just isn't the right time. I agreed with that. He also said that he's been put into the honors program--and all I could think was "Based on what, exactly?" The only examples of his writing that I saw were hardly honors quality ... but I probably shouldn't get going on what I think of the direction of the honors program in the past few years. I do want to see whether the Mogul has signed up for Paul's honors comp for spring--and if he has, I'll issue a bit of a warning. That may not be fair; it might be best to let Paul draw his own conclusions about the kid--but then, Paul also sometimes reads this blog, so....
As for the grading process, I've read and commented on the essays for the students who wanted those comments. I have two more essays to read and leave on my office door with just the grade. Then I get down to the quick and dirty: read, calculate, toss in the box. I'll get essays from the SF students tomorrow, then I'll meet them for the end-of-semester debriefing and to collect their self-evaluations. By that time, I should have everything calculated, ready to plug that last number in ... so I'm hoping I can submit final grades early and be home early on Thursday.
But I'm getting ahead of myself. I do have a couple of those "Oh, shit, I keep forgetting" things to take care of (responding as a jury reader to a potential publication that I've given feedback on several times before, trying to get copyright to use Le Guin's Paradises Lost in the online Nature in Lit--which is now up to a whole entire three students registered!!)--but none of that will happen tonight. I'm staggering home. We'll see how early (or, more realistically, how late) I roll in tomorrow, and how much I manage to get done.
Thursday, December 14, 2017
Much is explained
I'm posting fast, as I have to get out of here to a doctor's appointment--but in the SF class today, the Budding Literary Critic, who has been pretty silent for a while, suddenly spoke up, and man, did he go to an extreme. He hates the characters in Le Guin's novel, all of them, thinks they should die, because they don't understand that schizophrenia needs to be treated, as otherwise it's dangerous, and because of their attitude toward suicide (which they consider the worst possible crime--worse even than murder). In his rant, he said that when he was hospitalized, he saw someone get badly beaten by another patient with schizophrenia ... and I thought, "Ah. I get it." I don't know what his particular illness was, but the fact that he's had to deal with something profound enough to warrant a stay in the hospital explains his contradictory reactions: one minute, smiling in agreement; the next, only able to see the negative and ranting about it.
And his rant sure woke up some of the students who had been close to drifting off to sleep at that point. So: thanks to him.
I met after class with Gaston and Alphonse; Gaston wanted to talk about his final essay, and Alphonse about the revision of his second essay. Both needed to get a sense of focus for their ideas, which they both seemed to get through answering my questions and responding to my comments. (And to Alphonse, after he'd explained his writing process, I said that what he was doing wasn't writing an essay: it was brainstorming, and he needs to build time into his process so he can brainstorm and then go back over it and revise to create an actual focus.)
That's the good part of the day. The morning was chaotic in the extreme, as I had to deal with getting a rental car (my car in the driveway, waiting for me to have time to drive it to the shop--slowly with its muffler dragging on the ground), getting to the rental car place (long story), getting to an eye doctor appointment--and having to tell them that I was going to have to leave without seeing the doctor (at which point they hustled me into an exam room and apparently lassoed the doctor, dragged him away from something else, and shoved him in the room with me). And on it goes.
I'm taking home the 101 essays for the students who want comments. They may just sit in the tote bag, untouched, until I drag them back here on Monday. I'm making no promises to myself about getting anything at all done over the weekend, except some life maintenance--and a little bit of time recharging my mental batteries before I dive head first into final grading.
So, more ... well, whenever. It's all just a chair of bowlies.
And his rant sure woke up some of the students who had been close to drifting off to sleep at that point. So: thanks to him.
I met after class with Gaston and Alphonse; Gaston wanted to talk about his final essay, and Alphonse about the revision of his second essay. Both needed to get a sense of focus for their ideas, which they both seemed to get through answering my questions and responding to my comments. (And to Alphonse, after he'd explained his writing process, I said that what he was doing wasn't writing an essay: it was brainstorming, and he needs to build time into his process so he can brainstorm and then go back over it and revise to create an actual focus.)
That's the good part of the day. The morning was chaotic in the extreme, as I had to deal with getting a rental car (my car in the driveway, waiting for me to have time to drive it to the shop--slowly with its muffler dragging on the ground), getting to the rental car place (long story), getting to an eye doctor appointment--and having to tell them that I was going to have to leave without seeing the doctor (at which point they hustled me into an exam room and apparently lassoed the doctor, dragged him away from something else, and shoved him in the room with me). And on it goes.
I'm taking home the 101 essays for the students who want comments. They may just sit in the tote bag, untouched, until I drag them back here on Monday. I'm making no promises to myself about getting anything at all done over the weekend, except some life maintenance--and a little bit of time recharging my mental batteries before I dive head first into final grading.
So, more ... well, whenever. It's all just a chair of bowlies.
Wednesday, December 13, 2017
Funny how the mind works...
I have apparently given up on the 5:00 101 to the point that I almost forgot I had the class today, and very nearly went home at 4, instead of staying here long enough to at least collect essays. I got nine of them--which is two more than submitted the first version, but there you go. Now we see how many of them remember to upload to Turnitin.
I didn't remind them that they have to ask for comments; I figure, if they want the comments, they'd have remembered. Several students in the 2:00 class did ask for comments; a few just want the grade. As I said to them all, "You have to want it badly enough that you'll come to campus to get it; otherwise, don't ask for it." But again, we'll see. Every semester I have students who say, "Oh, yes, Professor! I want your comments so very much!" (eyelash bat-bat-bat, nose several shades of brown) and then ... the graded essay sits on my office door until some time in the next semester, when I toss it in my box of essays that I keep in case of grade grievances.
At any rate, while I was waiting for students to show up with essays, I did a little sketching out of the assignment schedules for spring. I have to back up and think carefully about what I'm assigning out of the Norton anthology for the Nature in Lit class. I know the pieces I liked well enough to star when I read them back in 2004, but I have no idea how I grouped them or what the essay assignments were: my files are woefully incomplete on that score. But it is fascinating to see how my pedagogy has changed: apparently I used to assign "process papers" that led to a "final research paper"--and now I have no idea what I meant by "process papers," and I can understand why my students struggle with my assignment sheets, as I did not have the patience to wade through my complicated instructions to figure out what the hell a process paper was. And I have some themes identified from back then, when I used the anthology, so I'm hoping I can figure out what readings might be used for those topics--or for the topics I created when I started using a photocopied reader, or for other topics I might come up with... or something.
Just thinking about that almost made my brain burst into flames. I definitely heard the "overload!" warning sirens...
And my brain just scattered to the winds. I have no idea what I was going to do, or say, or think, or anything. As a consequence, my strong hunch is I should get home before I forget where that is.
I didn't remind them that they have to ask for comments; I figure, if they want the comments, they'd have remembered. Several students in the 2:00 class did ask for comments; a few just want the grade. As I said to them all, "You have to want it badly enough that you'll come to campus to get it; otherwise, don't ask for it." But again, we'll see. Every semester I have students who say, "Oh, yes, Professor! I want your comments so very much!" (eyelash bat-bat-bat, nose several shades of brown) and then ... the graded essay sits on my office door until some time in the next semester, when I toss it in my box of essays that I keep in case of grade grievances.
At any rate, while I was waiting for students to show up with essays, I did a little sketching out of the assignment schedules for spring. I have to back up and think carefully about what I'm assigning out of the Norton anthology for the Nature in Lit class. I know the pieces I liked well enough to star when I read them back in 2004, but I have no idea how I grouped them or what the essay assignments were: my files are woefully incomplete on that score. But it is fascinating to see how my pedagogy has changed: apparently I used to assign "process papers" that led to a "final research paper"--and now I have no idea what I meant by "process papers," and I can understand why my students struggle with my assignment sheets, as I did not have the patience to wade through my complicated instructions to figure out what the hell a process paper was. And I have some themes identified from back then, when I used the anthology, so I'm hoping I can figure out what readings might be used for those topics--or for the topics I created when I started using a photocopied reader, or for other topics I might come up with... or something.
Just thinking about that almost made my brain burst into flames. I definitely heard the "overload!" warning sirens...
And my brain just scattered to the winds. I have no idea what I was going to do, or say, or think, or anything. As a consequence, my strong hunch is I should get home before I forget where that is.
Tuesday, December 12, 2017
A need for many martinis
Well, not really. I don't drink martinis--or do so extremely rarely--but I am thinking about that Doonesbury cartoon, with the president of Walden College giving his commencement address.... And I certainly am tired. Very tired. So tired, in fact, that I'm having a hard time figuring out what I need to do, or remembering what happened, or being certain that I'm being coherent.
Class today was fine--even a bit better than they've been of late: more students managed to stay awake and more contributed to the class conversation, including two young women who are often too shy to speak, which I take as a triumph (even if it has nothing to do with me). We did talk a bit about the themes--especially the gender thing--and this time I remembered to focus on what we see in Gethenian society and to head off at the pass a few of the common errors students make (such as stating that all Gethenians are equal, when patently they are not). Some of them are latching on, some are hanging on by their fingernails, but I think the bunch that I have right now will make it across the finish line. Barely, in some cases, but they'll make it.
In P&B, there was more discussion of the fucked up state of the campus, with idiots wanting to rule by fiat, making decisions about things they know nothing about. I spent a lot of the meeting thinking, "I think I can retire soon. I think I can retire soon." It's a whole different take on the "Little Engine That Could" theme: I'm becoming the Little Engine That Won't.
Right now, it's ridiculously early for me, but I'm tired enough--physically, emotionally, psychologically--that I'm going to pack up my toys and go home. I never got around to eating lunch, so I think I'm going to have dunch, or linner (why isn't there a word like "brunch" for that?) and snuggle down with Dickens. Tomorrow will be easy, teaching-wise, as all I'm doing is collecting essays. (Oh, yes, and I did offer an extension to the fragile student with the hysterical mother. I'm not giving him until Monday, and I am applying a penalty, but I'm being extremely lenient.) One more day of actual teaching is required--Thursday, with the SF students--but we're almost at the final calculations phase.
And not only is tomorrow another day, but January starts another semester. Here's hoping I am stronger.
Class today was fine--even a bit better than they've been of late: more students managed to stay awake and more contributed to the class conversation, including two young women who are often too shy to speak, which I take as a triumph (even if it has nothing to do with me). We did talk a bit about the themes--especially the gender thing--and this time I remembered to focus on what we see in Gethenian society and to head off at the pass a few of the common errors students make (such as stating that all Gethenians are equal, when patently they are not). Some of them are latching on, some are hanging on by their fingernails, but I think the bunch that I have right now will make it across the finish line. Barely, in some cases, but they'll make it.
In P&B, there was more discussion of the fucked up state of the campus, with idiots wanting to rule by fiat, making decisions about things they know nothing about. I spent a lot of the meeting thinking, "I think I can retire soon. I think I can retire soon." It's a whole different take on the "Little Engine That Could" theme: I'm becoming the Little Engine That Won't.
Right now, it's ridiculously early for me, but I'm tired enough--physically, emotionally, psychologically--that I'm going to pack up my toys and go home. I never got around to eating lunch, so I think I'm going to have dunch, or linner (why isn't there a word like "brunch" for that?) and snuggle down with Dickens. Tomorrow will be easy, teaching-wise, as all I'm doing is collecting essays. (Oh, yes, and I did offer an extension to the fragile student with the hysterical mother. I'm not giving him until Monday, and I am applying a penalty, but I'm being extremely lenient.) One more day of actual teaching is required--Thursday, with the SF students--but we're almost at the final calculations phase.
And not only is tomorrow another day, but January starts another semester. Here's hoping I am stronger.
Monday, December 11, 2017
That's not energy; that's piss-off
Paul was saying earlier today that I still have energy, and I corrected him. I only have energy because I am a dramatic person--and I'm systemically pissed off. Students are suddenly grubbing for points--having blown them off most of the semester--and whining about this and that. In a lovely twist, a student mom who contacted me earlier in the semester and who said she understood that I can't talk with her about her 21-year-old son in my class sent me a rather hysterical email: her son thought he had until Monday to do the final version of the essay; when I said I absolutely would not accept it late--and that it's due Wednesday--he fell apart, and called her from the parking lot, in tears. The final lines of her email to me were "I PAY FOR CLASSES AND THEN HAVE TO PAY AGAIN CAUSE HE TRIES SO HARD AND JUST CAN'T KEEP UP! HAVE A HEART- IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!! [student mother's name] ps: if he gets into an accident leaving school I don't know what I am going to do!!"
Give me a fucking break. If he gets into an accident leaving school, I'll send flowers: how's that.
It's a good thing that happened via email, as if she'd shown up on my doorstep with that sort of bullshit, I'd have had a hard time refraining from ripping her head off. As it is, I simply replied that, as she knows, I can't talk to her about her son but that she should encourage him to contact me. (He did. He's slightly less hysterical in his email than his mother--and I will consider granting him an extension, because, although he doesn't have specific accommodations granted, he is a student with "special needs," and I know that he is more fragile than most.)
Then I went to the 5:00 class--and six students were there. The amazing disappearing class. In a way, though, I found that easier to deal with: I can disinvest from their success or failure. Two students actually showed up to withdraw today. Most are simply AWOL. Ah well.
I've been fooling around with a headache all day, and it's getting worse. I know it's a tension headache, but somehow that makes it even harder to relax.
In other news, I'm up to 12 students in Science Fiction for next semester--and back at one in Nature in Lit; that one is a student I talked to in Advisement today. I put up a few more fliers after the 5:00 class--and if I get a chance, I'll put up a few more tomorrow. I should have had them up weeks ago, but I really didn't think an online class would have a hard time filling. Of course, it may fill at the last minute--or nearly. Hope springs eternal.
I'm absolutely certain there is something else I wanted to relate about today, but damned if I can remember what it was. I'm going to head home and do my damnedest to forget all about this place until morning. Early to rise and early to Advisement tomorrow, but it should be a relatively painless day--I hope....
Give me a fucking break. If he gets into an accident leaving school, I'll send flowers: how's that.
It's a good thing that happened via email, as if she'd shown up on my doorstep with that sort of bullshit, I'd have had a hard time refraining from ripping her head off. As it is, I simply replied that, as she knows, I can't talk to her about her son but that she should encourage him to contact me. (He did. He's slightly less hysterical in his email than his mother--and I will consider granting him an extension, because, although he doesn't have specific accommodations granted, he is a student with "special needs," and I know that he is more fragile than most.)
Then I went to the 5:00 class--and six students were there. The amazing disappearing class. In a way, though, I found that easier to deal with: I can disinvest from their success or failure. Two students actually showed up to withdraw today. Most are simply AWOL. Ah well.
I've been fooling around with a headache all day, and it's getting worse. I know it's a tension headache, but somehow that makes it even harder to relax.
In other news, I'm up to 12 students in Science Fiction for next semester--and back at one in Nature in Lit; that one is a student I talked to in Advisement today. I put up a few more fliers after the 5:00 class--and if I get a chance, I'll put up a few more tomorrow. I should have had them up weeks ago, but I really didn't think an online class would have a hard time filling. Of course, it may fill at the last minute--or nearly. Hope springs eternal.
I'm absolutely certain there is something else I wanted to relate about today, but damned if I can remember what it was. I'm going to head home and do my damnedest to forget all about this place until morning. Early to rise and early to Advisement tomorrow, but it should be a relatively painless day--I hope....
Sunday, December 10, 2017
P.S. No shouting
I just checked my work email and there was a nice apology from the testy student who admitted that
her essay had not, in fact, been submitted on the 4th as she'd thought. So whatever shouting may occur, it won't come from that quarter. Apology accepted. And whew.
her essay had not, in fact, been submitted on the 4th as she'd thought. So whatever shouting may occur, it won't come from that quarter. Apology accepted. And whew.
Astonishingly caught up
All check sheets for editing completed.
All discussion board posts read and points assigned.
I haven't looked in my tote bag to see if there's anything else I brought home to work on, but if there is, screw it. This is enough for a weekend.
During the week, I'll only have reading notes from the SF students to evaluate. (Those may be in my tote bag. I'm not looking to see.) I do have to look at promotion folders for the colleagues who are going up for assistant/tenure prior to Tuesday's meeting, but that won't be onerous.
It really is winding down. And even after I make a much needed run to the grocery store, I'll have enough time to practice fiddle for the first time in a week. Happy days indeed.
The only sour note is an adult student in the 5:00 section of 101, who keeps telling me that she has the digital receipt for having uploaded her essay to Turnitin on time, but she has yet to produce the receipt--and I have checked Turnitin every day, using several different methods to see her submissions, in case she accidentally uploaded it to the wrong place, but her essay appeared for the first time today. She tends to toss out emails and then not follow up, and I'm getting pretty testy that she says she doesn't "agree" that her essay was not uploaded on time. I sent her a screen shot of the page on Turnitin. If she can produce that digital receipt, I'll take back the penalty (though I sure as shit won't have time to give her any comments for revision before class tomorrow). However, my bet is she won't respond to my email saying I don't have the receipt, and I'll end up having to argue with her out in the hall tomorrow during class. I don't relish that. The phrase "all over but the shouting" is amusing until there actually is shouting, or at least evidence of tempers aflare.
Nevertheless. It's winding down, thank all the gods that may be. I might even go downstairs to join in the very loud party my neighbors are having. (OK, not really, but I'm almost feeling celebratory. Almost.)
More tomorrow.
All discussion board posts read and points assigned.
I haven't looked in my tote bag to see if there's anything else I brought home to work on, but if there is, screw it. This is enough for a weekend.
During the week, I'll only have reading notes from the SF students to evaluate. (Those may be in my tote bag. I'm not looking to see.) I do have to look at promotion folders for the colleagues who are going up for assistant/tenure prior to Tuesday's meeting, but that won't be onerous.
It really is winding down. And even after I make a much needed run to the grocery store, I'll have enough time to practice fiddle for the first time in a week. Happy days indeed.
The only sour note is an adult student in the 5:00 section of 101, who keeps telling me that she has the digital receipt for having uploaded her essay to Turnitin on time, but she has yet to produce the receipt--and I have checked Turnitin every day, using several different methods to see her submissions, in case she accidentally uploaded it to the wrong place, but her essay appeared for the first time today. She tends to toss out emails and then not follow up, and I'm getting pretty testy that she says she doesn't "agree" that her essay was not uploaded on time. I sent her a screen shot of the page on Turnitin. If she can produce that digital receipt, I'll take back the penalty (though I sure as shit won't have time to give her any comments for revision before class tomorrow). However, my bet is she won't respond to my email saying I don't have the receipt, and I'll end up having to argue with her out in the hall tomorrow during class. I don't relish that. The phrase "all over but the shouting" is amusing until there actually is shouting, or at least evidence of tempers aflare.
Nevertheless. It's winding down, thank all the gods that may be. I might even go downstairs to join in the very loud party my neighbors are having. (OK, not really, but I'm almost feeling celebratory. Almost.)
More tomorrow.
Saturday, December 9, 2017
Only marginally painful
Well, all the essays I got, I've marked and returned with comments. I still need to do the editing check-sheets for a bunch of them (eleven, to be precise), but I'm done with providing comments--at least until I have to comment on the final versions, as I'm sure, despite how much I don't want to do any more commenting, some students are going to want the comments--or say they want them, even though they probably won't pick them up.
And I got all that done even though I started later than I'd have liked. And it's not insanely late now.
So, all that's good.
Seven more days of classes. That's it. Seven. I have one more early morning (making up time in Advisement on Tuesday), but ... it's almost done.
I sort of feel like I should do some paperwork of some sort--grade calculation sheets, prep for spring classes, something--but I'm not going to do anything except feel the relief of having gotten through that push.
Breathing. Breathing.
And I got all that done even though I started later than I'd have liked. And it's not insanely late now.
So, all that's good.
Seven more days of classes. That's it. Seven. I have one more early morning (making up time in Advisement on Tuesday), but ... it's almost done.
I sort of feel like I should do some paperwork of some sort--grade calculation sheets, prep for spring classes, something--but I'm not going to do anything except feel the relief of having gotten through that push.
Breathing. Breathing.
Friday, December 8, 2017
Ooof
Well, I sure didn't get much done today, so that's going to make for a hell of a day tomorrow. I have nine essays that need comments, and another eleven that just need the check-sheet for editing review--but like an idiot, I didn't send myself all the files I downloaded at the office, so I'm having to download everything again. Ah well. If that's the worst thing to happen, I can't complain too loudly. (Well, I can, but I'd feel pretty ungrateful.)
I don't have a lot more than that to report today. Tomorrow is supposed to be wonderfully wintery--our first snow of the season, and some actual accumulation if the forecast is to be believed--which means it will be a great day to hunker down with many cups of tea and the computer and just crank away at it.
After this, all I have to do is final grading. I hope like mad that no one wants comments, as I'm about commented out. If at all possible, I'd love to spend next weekend working on my spring syllabi and assignment schedules. I really don't think Nature in Lit is going to run, dammit, so I'll prep the other courses first, then do what I can with that one. If nothing else, maybe it will run in the fall...? Hope springs eternal.
I may check in at the end of the grading haul tomorrow. It always feels good to have a blog post to put a period on the day.
I don't have a lot more than that to report today. Tomorrow is supposed to be wonderfully wintery--our first snow of the season, and some actual accumulation if the forecast is to be believed--which means it will be a great day to hunker down with many cups of tea and the computer and just crank away at it.
After this, all I have to do is final grading. I hope like mad that no one wants comments, as I'm about commented out. If at all possible, I'd love to spend next weekend working on my spring syllabi and assignment schedules. I really don't think Nature in Lit is going to run, dammit, so I'll prep the other courses first, then do what I can with that one. If nothing else, maybe it will run in the fall...? Hope springs eternal.
I may check in at the end of the grading haul tomorrow. It always feels good to have a blog post to put a period on the day.
Thursday, December 7, 2017
I am toast.
Having just taught Oryx and Crake, I of course think of the moment when Jimmy/Snowman tries to explain to the new genetically modified humans in his charge what toast is:
"Toast was a pointless invention from the Dark Ages. Toast was an implement of torture that caused all those subjected to it to regurgitate in verbal form the sins and crimes of their past lives. Toast was a ritual item devoured by fetishists in the belief that it would enhance their kinetic and sexual powers. Toast cannot be explained by any rational means.
"Toast is me.
"I am toast." (98)
But I am toast, over-done toast at that: a bit burned around the edges, and so crunchy as to fall to bits. There is no real explanation for this state of affairs, except, well, it's two weeks before the last day of the semester; I am among the millions of Americans (and perhaps all teachers) who are sleep deprived; there is work I have yet to do that I absolutely, utterly do not want to do.
I didn't do much today. I conferenced with a few students, met with the SF class (which now follows the routine of three students asking good questions and making intelligent comments while the others stare into space, stare at their desks, or fall asleep), did a little photocopying, read a bit of Left Hand of Darkness (just to have it fresh in my mind--and because I still absolutely love it) and made some notes for the online Nature in Lit (which I'll still try to pull together, in hope that it might run), put up some fliers about the class. That sounds pretty active, but it adds up to nothing much.
I certainly didn't grade any of those thirteen essays that I need to mark, nor did I do the editing review check sheet for the ones I already graded. I had a serious Scarlett O'Hara moment over even the thought: nope, I'll think about that tomorrow.
I think I have the pack ready for Monday morning. I think I have the things I'll need to work on over the weekend in my "schlep home" tote bag.
I think I'm pretty well out the door. I need to water the office plants and bundle up (it's actually a seasonable temperature out there). If I'm forgetting anything, it will just have to be forgotten until, well, whenever.
I will depart, leaving a trail of crumbs behind me no doubt.
"Toast was a pointless invention from the Dark Ages. Toast was an implement of torture that caused all those subjected to it to regurgitate in verbal form the sins and crimes of their past lives. Toast was a ritual item devoured by fetishists in the belief that it would enhance their kinetic and sexual powers. Toast cannot be explained by any rational means.
"Toast is me.
"I am toast." (98)
But I am toast, over-done toast at that: a bit burned around the edges, and so crunchy as to fall to bits. There is no real explanation for this state of affairs, except, well, it's two weeks before the last day of the semester; I am among the millions of Americans (and perhaps all teachers) who are sleep deprived; there is work I have yet to do that I absolutely, utterly do not want to do.
I didn't do much today. I conferenced with a few students, met with the SF class (which now follows the routine of three students asking good questions and making intelligent comments while the others stare into space, stare at their desks, or fall asleep), did a little photocopying, read a bit of Left Hand of Darkness (just to have it fresh in my mind--and because I still absolutely love it) and made some notes for the online Nature in Lit (which I'll still try to pull together, in hope that it might run), put up some fliers about the class. That sounds pretty active, but it adds up to nothing much.
I certainly didn't grade any of those thirteen essays that I need to mark, nor did I do the editing review check sheet for the ones I already graded. I had a serious Scarlett O'Hara moment over even the thought: nope, I'll think about that tomorrow.
I think I have the pack ready for Monday morning. I think I have the things I'll need to work on over the weekend in my "schlep home" tote bag.
I think I'm pretty well out the door. I need to water the office plants and bundle up (it's actually a seasonable temperature out there). If I'm forgetting anything, it will just have to be forgotten until, well, whenever.
I will depart, leaving a trail of crumbs behind me no doubt.
Wednesday, December 6, 2017
Thirteen: let's hope it's a lucky number
I have thirteen essays yet to grade; that's combining both sections of 101. Of those thirteen, six were submitted today. It's possible a few more may come in, but if they do, I don't have to comment on them; I just need to calculate a grade, then reduce it by 50%. but honestly, I'm not expecting anything from the students who are, in terms of essays AWOL. I'm pretty sure that what I have is what I'm going to get.
I just spent a little time reworking--again--the assignment handouts for the various 101 essays. I don't think I'll ever achieve the Golden Assignment Handout, but at least I keep striving for clarity and concision.
Today generally was surprisingly unstressful--particularly considering the unusually fierce bout of insomnia last night. Advisement was busy enough to move the time along but slow enough that I was able to mark almost everything I have in hand for all three classes. The one bummer of a moment was when I checked enrollment for my classes for spring--and saw that the online Nature in Lit has gone from one student to zero. I'm not sure if that's about the class, about me, or about it being at the bottom of the list of online courses, but it does make me wonder about how much time and energy I should put into prepping the damned thing. (It also makes me think I need to do fliers--as per usual. I was foolish to believe it would run just because it's online: it needs to be "sold," more's the pity.)
Today's conferences were fine, too--and I had enough time, because of cancellations and one no-show, to grade the three for tomorrow with time to spare. I was afraid I might be burning the midnight whatever, but no: I can sail out of here at my usual time, knowing I'm set for tomorrow.
I am some combination of amused and alarmed to note in myself a sense of "Oh, good: I'm done," just because I graded everything for the conferences. That was the minority of the essays I have to do: eleven, with--as I said--thirteen more to go. So I need to be on top of things tomorrow and, if I can make myself be disciplined, on Friday (though my whole body is going to be screaming "PROCRASTINATE! You can do 'em on Saturday."). I should be motivated by the "if I do it and get it done, it won't be hanging over my head" thing, but I suspect I'll be more motivated by the "the students need these so they can do their best work" thing.
Oh, yeah: and I also still need to do the check sheets for editing, even if I'm not marking the essays for that step. I keep forgetting that I actually have to do that--and it will take a bit of time. I probably should have been doing those as I graded all along, but I was concerned about time for the ones I needed for the conferences. I hope, however, I remember to do the editing check sheets as I grade the remainder, so each one is done as in stick-a-fork-in-it done.
Then I'll have some reading notes to mark for the SF students (which I'm mostly enjoying actually, especially the notes that are pretty good, providing some real thoughts for me to encourage, respond to, challenge...); that will be it until next Wednesday, when I get the final versions of final essays from the 101s. Final versions of final essays from the SF students will be on Tuesday, Dec. 19. Then self-evaluations--and we're out.
And I'll have survived another semester. Remarkable to feel it so close. (Challenging not to let go of my energy and drive prematurely.)
Apropos of nothing: it's been interesting to speculate on the nose-dive in the blog readership since an all-time high this summer. A friend on Facebook suggested that my readers might mostly be academics--and that theory might be borne out by the fact that in the last week, the "page views" have declined even more precipitously, right at the time of year when most of us are in the final throes (or throws) of the term. It would be nice to think I'm talking to other educators. You all get what I'm talking about, right?
I just spent a little time reworking--again--the assignment handouts for the various 101 essays. I don't think I'll ever achieve the Golden Assignment Handout, but at least I keep striving for clarity and concision.
Today generally was surprisingly unstressful--particularly considering the unusually fierce bout of insomnia last night. Advisement was busy enough to move the time along but slow enough that I was able to mark almost everything I have in hand for all three classes. The one bummer of a moment was when I checked enrollment for my classes for spring--and saw that the online Nature in Lit has gone from one student to zero. I'm not sure if that's about the class, about me, or about it being at the bottom of the list of online courses, but it does make me wonder about how much time and energy I should put into prepping the damned thing. (It also makes me think I need to do fliers--as per usual. I was foolish to believe it would run just because it's online: it needs to be "sold," more's the pity.)
Today's conferences were fine, too--and I had enough time, because of cancellations and one no-show, to grade the three for tomorrow with time to spare. I was afraid I might be burning the midnight whatever, but no: I can sail out of here at my usual time, knowing I'm set for tomorrow.
I am some combination of amused and alarmed to note in myself a sense of "Oh, good: I'm done," just because I graded everything for the conferences. That was the minority of the essays I have to do: eleven, with--as I said--thirteen more to go. So I need to be on top of things tomorrow and, if I can make myself be disciplined, on Friday (though my whole body is going to be screaming "PROCRASTINATE! You can do 'em on Saturday."). I should be motivated by the "if I do it and get it done, it won't be hanging over my head" thing, but I suspect I'll be more motivated by the "the students need these so they can do their best work" thing.
Oh, yeah: and I also still need to do the check sheets for editing, even if I'm not marking the essays for that step. I keep forgetting that I actually have to do that--and it will take a bit of time. I probably should have been doing those as I graded all along, but I was concerned about time for the ones I needed for the conferences. I hope, however, I remember to do the editing check sheets as I grade the remainder, so each one is done as in stick-a-fork-in-it done.
Then I'll have some reading notes to mark for the SF students (which I'm mostly enjoying actually, especially the notes that are pretty good, providing some real thoughts for me to encourage, respond to, challenge...); that will be it until next Wednesday, when I get the final versions of final essays from the 101s. Final versions of final essays from the SF students will be on Tuesday, Dec. 19. Then self-evaluations--and we're out.
And I'll have survived another semester. Remarkable to feel it so close. (Challenging not to let go of my energy and drive prematurely.)
Apropos of nothing: it's been interesting to speculate on the nose-dive in the blog readership since an all-time high this summer. A friend on Facebook suggested that my readers might mostly be academics--and that theory might be borne out by the fact that in the last week, the "page views" have declined even more precipitously, right at the time of year when most of us are in the final throes (or throws) of the term. It would be nice to think I'm talking to other educators. You all get what I'm talking about, right?
Tuesday, December 5, 2017
So, I "officially" declared this "Student Blooper Month" on Facebook, and I've tried to remember to post at least one blooper a day: I've been saving them for ages, and a lot are pretty hilarious.
I encountered a good one in an essay I graded today, and as Paul was also here working, I interrupted him to share it. That got us talking about bloopers--and I mentioned out loud the experience I had eons ago with encountering Richard Lederer's "Student Bloopers History of the World." I decided to google it, so I could share it with Paul--and in a very creepy moment, the minute I typed the word "Richard" into the Google search bar, the whole name and title appeared. I have done absolutely zero searches having anything to do with that on any of my devices, at home or on campus. I haven't written it anywhere. All I can think is that there is some kind of voice-recognition software in the computer and it heard me. Which really freaks me out. If the computer is listening, who else is? And who's keeping a file of everything I say?
Setting aside my tech paranoia, here's a link to the history. It is pretty hilarious, I have to say, and it holds up. I still laugh out loud at some of them.
https://www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~norman/Jokes-file/StudentBloopers.htm
The SF class went about as it's been going. Most of the student contributions came from three students--the same three who've been holding the rest of the class up pretty much all semester. A few other voices got into the mix, but if it weren't for those three, I think there would be 75 minutes of silence in the room. I don't know how much they're getting, or maybe more to the point how much they're missing, but they seem to be latched on well enough to go for the full ride. We'll see.
The best news of the day is that three students didn't submit their essays to Turnitin yesterday, so I was able to tell them that I won't have their essays ready for their conferences tomorrow--and in fact, there's no reason for them to come to their conferences, as there wouldn't be anything for us to talk about. Plus Cathy canceled P&B today, so that freed up a good chunk of time. And one sweet student--who just turned 17, so she's even younger than most--agreed to move her conference to Thursday. I think she's pinching another part of her life to do it, and last night I told her she didn't have to feel obligated--but she didn't tell me she wanted to keep the original time, so ... Thursday it is.
And for Thursday, only three students who have conferences have submitted essays.
In fact, of the students in the 5:00 class, a grand total of seven have submitted essays to Turnitin. Of course, they may still submit them at the last second today--or even try to submit them later than that, though I sent out an email saying that I won't mark anything that's submitted after Thursday.
And that made me realize that--once again--I have to rethink and rewrite the submission policy and late penalties.
On top of which, I'm fretting about whether to grade on a curve for the first time in my career. I'm right on the fence there. On the one hand, the students need a wake-up call. On the other, this is the first time in their lives, most of them, when they've had this kind of responsibility and need to be completely point-precise in following instructions. I don't know. If I have time to crunch most of the numbers before the last time I see them, I'll try to make a decision before our last class meeting, so I can let them know what I'm doing and why.
This only applies to the 101s--and it applies more to the 5:00 section than to the 2:00 section.
Well, decisions and indecisions. There will be time.
Two weeks. Well, two weeks and two days to the official last day. Paul panicked when I said that, but I'm weirdly blithe about what I still haven't done. I suppose the panic will hit eventually. It always does, and it always turns out to be needless. Here we go round the prickly pear.
And here I go out the door. Thank God tomorrow is another day, because this one is shot.
I encountered a good one in an essay I graded today, and as Paul was also here working, I interrupted him to share it. That got us talking about bloopers--and I mentioned out loud the experience I had eons ago with encountering Richard Lederer's "Student Bloopers History of the World." I decided to google it, so I could share it with Paul--and in a very creepy moment, the minute I typed the word "Richard" into the Google search bar, the whole name and title appeared. I have done absolutely zero searches having anything to do with that on any of my devices, at home or on campus. I haven't written it anywhere. All I can think is that there is some kind of voice-recognition software in the computer and it heard me. Which really freaks me out. If the computer is listening, who else is? And who's keeping a file of everything I say?
Setting aside my tech paranoia, here's a link to the history. It is pretty hilarious, I have to say, and it holds up. I still laugh out loud at some of them.
https://www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~norman/Jokes-file/StudentBloopers.htm
The SF class went about as it's been going. Most of the student contributions came from three students--the same three who've been holding the rest of the class up pretty much all semester. A few other voices got into the mix, but if it weren't for those three, I think there would be 75 minutes of silence in the room. I don't know how much they're getting, or maybe more to the point how much they're missing, but they seem to be latched on well enough to go for the full ride. We'll see.
The best news of the day is that three students didn't submit their essays to Turnitin yesterday, so I was able to tell them that I won't have their essays ready for their conferences tomorrow--and in fact, there's no reason for them to come to their conferences, as there wouldn't be anything for us to talk about. Plus Cathy canceled P&B today, so that freed up a good chunk of time. And one sweet student--who just turned 17, so she's even younger than most--agreed to move her conference to Thursday. I think she's pinching another part of her life to do it, and last night I told her she didn't have to feel obligated--but she didn't tell me she wanted to keep the original time, so ... Thursday it is.
And for Thursday, only three students who have conferences have submitted essays.
In fact, of the students in the 5:00 class, a grand total of seven have submitted essays to Turnitin. Of course, they may still submit them at the last second today--or even try to submit them later than that, though I sent out an email saying that I won't mark anything that's submitted after Thursday.
And that made me realize that--once again--I have to rethink and rewrite the submission policy and late penalties.
On top of which, I'm fretting about whether to grade on a curve for the first time in my career. I'm right on the fence there. On the one hand, the students need a wake-up call. On the other, this is the first time in their lives, most of them, when they've had this kind of responsibility and need to be completely point-precise in following instructions. I don't know. If I have time to crunch most of the numbers before the last time I see them, I'll try to make a decision before our last class meeting, so I can let them know what I'm doing and why.
This only applies to the 101s--and it applies more to the 5:00 section than to the 2:00 section.
Well, decisions and indecisions. There will be time.
Two weeks. Well, two weeks and two days to the official last day. Paul panicked when I said that, but I'm weirdly blithe about what I still haven't done. I suppose the panic will hit eventually. It always does, and it always turns out to be needless. Here we go round the prickly pear.
And here I go out the door. Thank God tomorrow is another day, because this one is shot.
Monday, December 4, 2017
I'm so screwed...
I've given myself zero time in which to evaluate the first version of the final essay for the 101 students: I'm getting the electronic versions of the essays tonight, and I start conferencing on Wednesday. And of course, most of the students in the earlier section signed up for conferences during our class period on Wednesday. Fewer students from the other section even showed up with essays, and not all of those wanted conferences--but getting through everything I'll need for the Wednesday conferences is going to be a nightmare. My own fault, I know, but that doesn't make it any more tolerable a situation.
I did tell students that if I didn't get their essays today, they wouldn't get any comments at all in time for conferences; late essays mean no conference (though they'll still get comments if they submit by end of day tomorrow--just not until after the conferences are done).
And one student who is not opting for a conference asked me when he'd get his essay with comments. I wanted to say, "Whenever I get it to you, and be fucking grateful that I do this at all." But I didn't. I said, "As soon as I can get to it." Which is every bit as true, just without the mustard.
I managed to get the vast majority of the work for the SF class graded over the weekend--and did my self-fulfillment activities (riding and fiddle lessons). I had a few bits to finish up today, but I got that all done plus returned everything I had in hand for the 101s, so apart from the little bits I collected today, the decks are completely clear for me to grade those essays.
Still: it's going to be a Herculean task. The Augean stables have nothing on this.
Meanwhile, I am making my dear Paul completely miserable, as I keep talking about how I have to get the fuck out of here, retire ASAP. I do not want to leave behind the wonderful sharing that he and I engage in--of pedagogy, of professional and personal support--but the rest of the job is just wearing me down, as I keep saying here. I would like to stop banging that particular drum: it's getting tedious and repetitive even for me. But the feeling is there. I know that some of my present feeling about the job is colored by clouds in other areas of my life--including the political situation of this country, which is not fun for just about anyone right now. If I were more positive in other areas of my life, I'd be more positive about the job--or at least I'd have more energy to devote to it instead of feeling so sapped so much of the time. It's not just lack of sleep. Hell, the whole nation is sleep deprived; I'm not alone in that. It's the emotional weight from all the parts of life that are less than spiffy at the moment. And I'm not alone in struggling with that, either.
I know this too shall pass. Everything does. I know things will change, and likely for the better--eventually. I'm with Anne Frank: "I still believe that people are really good at heart." I know my life is filled with blessings, too--and this career, this job, this place are among those blessings, despite how much I complain. It's good to remind myself of the ways that being here is something to be grateful for, instead of the perpetual bitching. And the good goes well beyond my dear office mates, both of them treasures--though they are certainly way up there in the things I value about my job.
That's my homework for tonight: to remember the good, to celebrate the positive, to be grateful for the gifts. The hard work of tomorrow will be done tomorrow. Tonight, the decks are 89% clear, and that's good enough to go home on.
I did tell students that if I didn't get their essays today, they wouldn't get any comments at all in time for conferences; late essays mean no conference (though they'll still get comments if they submit by end of day tomorrow--just not until after the conferences are done).
And one student who is not opting for a conference asked me when he'd get his essay with comments. I wanted to say, "Whenever I get it to you, and be fucking grateful that I do this at all." But I didn't. I said, "As soon as I can get to it." Which is every bit as true, just without the mustard.
I managed to get the vast majority of the work for the SF class graded over the weekend--and did my self-fulfillment activities (riding and fiddle lessons). I had a few bits to finish up today, but I got that all done plus returned everything I had in hand for the 101s, so apart from the little bits I collected today, the decks are completely clear for me to grade those essays.
Still: it's going to be a Herculean task. The Augean stables have nothing on this.
Meanwhile, I am making my dear Paul completely miserable, as I keep talking about how I have to get the fuck out of here, retire ASAP. I do not want to leave behind the wonderful sharing that he and I engage in--of pedagogy, of professional and personal support--but the rest of the job is just wearing me down, as I keep saying here. I would like to stop banging that particular drum: it's getting tedious and repetitive even for me. But the feeling is there. I know that some of my present feeling about the job is colored by clouds in other areas of my life--including the political situation of this country, which is not fun for just about anyone right now. If I were more positive in other areas of my life, I'd be more positive about the job--or at least I'd have more energy to devote to it instead of feeling so sapped so much of the time. It's not just lack of sleep. Hell, the whole nation is sleep deprived; I'm not alone in that. It's the emotional weight from all the parts of life that are less than spiffy at the moment. And I'm not alone in struggling with that, either.
I know this too shall pass. Everything does. I know things will change, and likely for the better--eventually. I'm with Anne Frank: "I still believe that people are really good at heart." I know my life is filled with blessings, too--and this career, this job, this place are among those blessings, despite how much I complain. It's good to remind myself of the ways that being here is something to be grateful for, instead of the perpetual bitching. And the good goes well beyond my dear office mates, both of them treasures--though they are certainly way up there in the things I value about my job.
That's my homework for tonight: to remember the good, to celebrate the positive, to be grateful for the gifts. The hard work of tomorrow will be done tomorrow. Tonight, the decks are 89% clear, and that's good enough to go home on.
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